Im jealous and i hate it. I hate how you go to her whenever you have problems. I hate how you’re so close to her. I hate how your friends tease me about you and her. I hate how you had that dream of cheating on me with her.
I hate how she is way better than me. I hate how she knows you better than i do. I hate how you two had a past but still are best friends.
I am so scared. So scared that one day you’ll wake up and realize that she’s better than me. That she might make you happier than I do. Every time you talk it kills me. I hate this feeling I just wanna get rid of it. I wanna just feel confident that you’re just mine and she can’t take you away from me. But most of all I hate myself for doubting you. That I don’t trust you. But believe me when I say i’m trying my best not to feel this way anymore. I love you.. It’s just.. This fucking hurts me.